My husband and I have been going through an extremely rough time this past week. We had to make a decision that nobody ever wants to make.
Our little boy, Buddy, is epileptic. He's suffered seizures since we first adopted him. We wouldn't dare take him back or give up on him, so we decided to give him the best life he could possibly have; one that 2 other families before us decided against.
He's been on several medications, and those worked... initially. Only recently have his seizures become more frequent. 3 times a day just isn't fair to him. One of the medications makes him dizzy, so he sometimes loses his balance. It also gives him nightmares :*(
He's kind of turned into a grumpy old man. There are moments when the puppy in him shines bright, but those moments aren't as often as he deserves. He's just under 2 years and 4 months old. It's just so hard to admit that he's not happy. We love him so much.
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| Our Buddy ♥ |
He's a ham. He loves having his picture taken. Here he is with our 4 year old puppy, Bandit...
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| They love each other. |
Tomorrow will be our last day with him :*(
To anyone who may come across this blog post: please pray for us. And Buddy. And Bandit. Though I know she remembers loving the time when she was an only child, she's grown to love him, too. She's extremely smart. She became an alert dog for his seizures. Anytime he starts having one, she barks. She has watched my husband and I enough to see the way we hold him when he has a seizure. She learned how to keep him from banging into things by putting her front paws and her weight around him. I know she knows that something is wrong. I've been in tears all week. I don't want her to be depressed.
Please pray that Buddy isn't scared. I hope he knows how much we love him. And I really hope it's true that all dogs go to Heaven. He's a sweetheart.
I'll leave this post by saying that Buddy will always be loved and never be forgotten.
I love you, Buddy Roo. You're such a good boy ♥
So sad :( I hope you'll get through it!
ReplyDeletei stumbled upon your blog and as im reading this post.. im getting teary eyed! i cant even imagine the pain your going through. im sooooo attached to our dog Cleo. she makes our lives so much better and i cant even picture her not being here with us . im sorry you had to make this hard decision.. my prayers go out to you doll.!
ReplyDeleteThank you. It was probably one of the worst decisions we've ever had to make. But I find some comfort in knowing it was the right one. I still catch myself thinking that I need to get up to get him his pills. And I still cry because I miss him. One good thing is that my memories of him will never fade. He was a pure sweetheart ♥
ReplyDeletedont be too hard on yourself. just know that you made the best decision for Buddy and he loves you from up above :)
ReplyDeleteOoooh, my prayers to you. Buddy is a doll! I know it wasn't easy, I had to do the same thing. You'll always feel Buddy around, though. He'll shine sun down on you to let you know he's happy you helped him out and that he loves you for it.
ReplyDeleteMy dog growing up at epilepsy :( I will never forget how I felt when I first saw her go into a seizure. *hugs*
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